Name:][S@B3|_|_3 Country:United States State:Illinois Metro:Granite City Birthday:5/31/1990 Gender:Female
Interests:The future, Metropolis Records, Cleopatra Records, Evanescence, Emilie Autumn, Cybergoth Subculture, Wicca, The Birthday Massacre, Suicide Girls, Explosm.net, Ragnarok,
IMVU Messenger,Katharine Isabelle, Canada, LiveJournal, DeadJournal, Secondshifters Radio, Lycanthropy, Demonism, Vampyrism, Anime, Marvel Comics Expertise:memorizing movie lines,Katharine Isabelle facts, Knowing Evanescence facts and band history, Raving, Literature & Grammar, Breathing, Making music with machines, Watching the Ginger Snaps Trilogy as much as humanly possible Occupation:Artist Industry:Entertainment
Yes, Erg. I miss my old friends at GCHS. Duston...Kelsey....Sandy....my old lunch table. And I haven't seen Stanford or Patch in forever. I mean...how do you deal...?
Think about it.
You go from a school where everyone loves you and everyone hates you (Either way, they know who you are...and you can yell obscenities at them) to a school where you are completely alone and no one knows you...or even cares to ask. Your only friends are you own teachers and all you do is read and write, read and write, eat cake, watch various angelina jolie movies, read and write. Before you got there the people they considered odd were twin whigger mexicans that look strikingly familar to The Gorillaz. Everyone thinks you're some sort of satanist out to kill them...all you hear all day are the other kids complaining about drug deals gone wrong or what happened at so-and-so's party last night. Who's fucking who? You know it. There's always about 25 kids in the whole school. You may mention music to a teacher or peer and they look at you like there's a blue rabbit creeping out from behind your left ear. Hell, the food's good though. You might know two people in the whole school...but do you like them? No. You're offered an "8-Ball" or a "Doobie" on a daily basis. You've earned many "Goth" related nicknames. No one wants to hang around you in gym except that weird guy who keeps telling you stories about how he USED to be a kickboxer. (Not That you care.) All of your work is so easy you finish 4 assignments in a matter of 20 minutes. (Seems all the people in your class have some mental disorder that makes their brain work like Shirley Manson trying NOT to say fuck.) So, you sit in class and draw the one....like it's tying a shoe. Over and over and over. Just because they're all you think about. You write a novel and get pages upon pages done every day. It's really not too bad...I just miss my social life.
So, I guess in conclusion...if you wanna make straight A's and drop your haters....get arrested and get sent to Alternative Schooling.
And further more. I miss you too. Angle three-More than you know. I wish you'd come back. You've been gone for so long...I might just amputate something...just to feel another pain besides what i've got.
It's been a very long weekend so far. But it seems to have gone by pretty fast. Is it already Sunday? I think it is.
Though, I could've swore last night was Homecoming and I thought Homecoming was Friday. Hmmm...I don't know. I guess I'm just crazy. Anyway, I'm at home after staying with Mike and Brody. We watched Road Trip and Freddy Got Fingered.
I got some new Evanescence Merchandise. Yay! And I got the Metal Edge Magazine with Amy on the front. Now I need to go back and get the other one with her on it. Anyone got a spare $5? I spent a lot this weekend...now I'm broke. (Besides the money I have in the bank)
Reminding me of money in the bank. When the FUCK is my The Birthday Massacre shirt going to get here!!! Grr. Further more, I have about three Halloween Parties to go to....what the fuck am I going to wear for a costume? I suppose I could give myself a comb over, tight clothes, ridiculously placed belts, and a straight razor and go as an ScEmo kid. But that's too lame...even for a costume.
I don't know....Stevee seemed to pull it off though. Hahaha.
I'm on a Razed In Black/God Module streak right now..it's what i've been listening to online for like 3 hours. And Evanescence. DUH. Alright....well....hmm.
I'm hungry. And there's a can of Chef Boyardee mocking my stomach. I'm going to eat it if mom isn't making dinner. ^_^
Ughh....my brother and little cousin have made a mess of the computer space. And my room. >=( That makes me sooo mad. Anyway. Gonna go. Bye!
Enjoy some Toxic Toons.
EDIT://
It's been a little while since I last celebrated a holiday. Samhain's
coming up and my "family" and I have not yet decided where to organize
such a thing.
Patch is having a Halloween party, So is my brother. My brother's is a Birthday/Halloween thing...so it may not be so big.
Brody
and I were talking about what to do. We got a Mabon celebration handed
to us. We were invited to Emily M's Mabon celebration. It was
fantastical. (Yeah, I know that's not a real word, you can shove it.)
After all the ceremonies we sat and played Phase 10. Tasha drove me
home and we had a good chat on that 4 block drive.
Anyway, back
on subject... Brody and I were thinking of throwing a Samhain
celebration. It's doubtful. We might just throw a Halloween party. I
have a lot of those to go to already. I'm thinking somehow we'll
probably end up going to Emily's again. Which isn't a big deal, or so
I've been told. I like it there. Plus, Em's mom cooks exotic foods
and Tasha and I like to try them and watch eachother's reactions. Then
discuss it later. Haha...we're so odd.
Tonight I hung out with
Haley for the first time in a long time with out feeling completely
like shit. It was still a little akward though. I suppose it will
always be. We pretty much just walked around town. We went to
Weathervane behind the Fire Station and sat with Tim. Then we walked to
the Cemetary by Farm Fresh. This odd dog came out of nowhere at the
cemetary and followed us for the rest of the night. We had to go to
Citgo because Haley had to pee really bad. She even considered pissing
on a tree next to the tombstone we were hanging around. But she didn't.
After Citgo we sat on a couch in the alley and listened to my lame ass
polyphonic ringtones. Then Haley got picked up at Schnuck's and Tim and
I went to Mike and Brody's for awhile and hung out with them and
Kristen. It was fun.
Something unexpected happened tonight. But
if you've noticed the change in my profile, I think you've figured it
out by now. And I don't give two shits and a fuck what you think of it.
Anyway....yeah....Brody...Patch....Mike even...We need to
figure out what's going on during Samhain. Pick up a fucking phone. My
cell is always on. (Unless it's dead....)
I'm tired and I'll be
busy tomorrow. I'm hanging out with Tim and the hopefully going to get
my Halloween costume for the parties.
Currently Listening Violet By The Birthday Massacre Nevermind see related
Random people confuse me. They confuse me a lot. I hate a place that sucks right now. I've been playing a lot of DDR with Patch because he just got another PS2 version. Yay DDR!
And we had Taquitos...and we played DDR forever it seemed. I didn't even realized it was 11:50 pm. I was supposed to be home fifty minutes before that. Ha...I'm in such trouble tomorrow morning.
